Sunday, September 27, 2009

Phew!

This has easily been the longest week in a very long time. Even longer than the previous one and that was a seriously painful week.
I was down with flu. I missed being a 19 year old who could just sleep in, monday to friday, instead of having to get up early, take the auto-metro-rick to college and speak for hours with a very sore throat, a fuzzy feeling in the head and a body that just wants to curl up in a nice warm bed.

The university where I teach has holidays in the first two weeks of october every year. Earlier this time would correspond with the beginning of the festival season in the country. In recent years however the festivals seem to begin a few days before october and go on till a few days after Oct'15th. This results in the holidays stretching on, unofficially.

September is all about navratras, ramzan, durga puja and this year Dussehra too seems to be falling in Sept. Which is why most students have already returned to their home towns. So unofficially yesterday was the last teaching day in this term. And since diwali is on Oct'17th and bhai-dooj a few days after that, the kids won't be returning before Oct'20th. That's practically a month of holidays for them! Ofcourse it's never enough as they were quick enough to remind me that last year the lunar calendar granted them a little more than 4o days of festivities! Needless to say I, for my part, am going to miss them alot, you can't help but grow fond of them.

Yesterday D's boss was on leave. So we had one of those once-in-a-very-long-time relaxed days. Had lunch at the india islamic cultural centre, which has an excellent restaurant, they cook some of the nicest indian food. Then walked down to Eatopia at the habitat centre, where we leisurely munched over some chocolate truffle. And checked out what was going on in terms of plays, movies etc. Just going to IHC can have such a soothing effect on your nerves, what with it's eco-friendly design. I wish I could have a home like that one day.
After that we went to Dilli Haat. That is one place we've never needed a reason to go to. There's always something to do there. Just walk amongst the stalls selling indian handicrafts - looking at some bits of silver jewellery or kurtas or silks or wood carvings or the lovely madhubani painting etc. In recent times it's become rare that we've picked up something, mostly because it's the same old stuff (for us) and slightly because, on the rare occassions that we have infact liked something, the seller has been more busy wooing americans/europeans! We did however stop at every single stall, D made sure of it. When we got tired, it was time for some momos at the Sikkim food stall (there is no better place for momos there). You know the sauce they serve them with, the one that's made up of red chillies and very little of anything else? Well, more or less it is spicy/hot to the same extent. Knowing which, D very confidently put five spoonfuls of it in each of our plates. After the first bite however, all we could say was "what have they put in this thing?!!" It was just so spicy. More hot than any chilli-based sauce or pickle I've ever had. We had tears running down our eyes, and running noses, and even then we couldn't resist it.
Eventually we picked up a whole lot of candles and diyas (lamps) for diwali from about half-a-dozen stalls of an association called 'Arunim' which works towards rehabilitation of mentally challenged people - it is an indirect initiative of the ministry of social justice and empowerment - infact the reason the stalls were so good this time was because this fornight they seem to have been given out to craftsmen identified under the same criteria. D & I usually do our diwali shopping together, looking for the best bargains, and we can confidently say their stuff was the prettiest we have seen in years. Bought some diyas handpainted pink, blue, green with sequins and what not.

It's safe to say that the festive spirit is well in the air. We went and watched 'Ramayan' a few days back at the Shri ram bhartiya kala kendra. It's one of the two main epics of hinduism. Basically Lord Ram did a whole lot of good deeds, and in the end killed the evil Ravana and returned home after 14 yrs of exile. Their 'Ram' wasn't as good as the previous ones we've seen but well the whole experience nevertheless was nice. The choreography, colours, costumes... AND the best part was at the end, at the exit there was this guy selling kiddy bow & arrows, swords and 'gadaa' (I am struggling to recall what it's called in english - is it a club?) - you know, the kinds they make out of cardboard, and then cover with alot of colourful chartpapers/cellophane sheets. And they fill the hollow part of the club with some stones or such-like, so that when you shake it, it makes that sound! I can't remember the last time I saw these things! I recall they used to be so popular when we stayed with my grandfather (before we left for muscat), and every year these sellers would ride on their bicycles through the streets, with these 'toys' mounted on a stand which was somehow fixed on to their bikes. That was easily 15 years back, if not more. RG & I were just so kicked to see them again! We,like the rest of the 5-10 yr olds there, surrounded that fellow and asked/haggled the price! We are now the proud owners of the biggest bow, one dozen paper arrows, and a smaller 'gadaa' :D Aah Fun-ness!

Yesterday there were garba/dandiya celebrations in our neighbourhood. In the garba, you use your hands to clap as you turn and twirl in circular formations which can be made of hundreds of people at a go. In the dandiya, you use wooden sticks instead. There's a vey distinct beat, to which you can only do the garba/dandiya, and nothing else!

It's the end of navratras today. Probably the enitre nation will be eating chana-puri-halwa! It also marks the end of 9 days of "no non-veg"! Ask anyone and they will tell you how much stronger the craving for any kind of non-veg is during the navratras!

Tomorrow is Dusshera. There will be huge effigies of Ravana (the evil demon) constructed everywhere, with 11 heads since he had so many of them, and they will be filled with fircrackers. In the evening, at the auspiciously determined time, all of them will be set to fire, thus marking the victory of good over evil. Diwali comes 20 days after Dussehra, when Lord Rama finally returned home - that's when we light the candles and lamps. More on that in 20 days time.

Monday, September 21, 2009

New somethings...

Everything's in place on the work front, and I like the change.

Something seems to be coming in place on the personal front too. And it's been a long long time coming, judging by what some of the closest friends have had to say about it! Everyone is expressing some element of disbelief - I ofcourse figure on the top of that list.
Nothing to lose and everything to win.... More later.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Daisies, NYC, Godfather, Pride & Prejudice

I don't usually download alot of movies. Simply because 99% of the times some virus or the other hits my computer. But I just had to watch 'You've Got Mail' this weekend. It took 20 hours to download but well it was all good.
It's one movie ma and I thoroughly enjoy. I think if I were to ever visit New York city I would want to see it in the You've Got Mail way. With a bunch of daisies. There was also a time when all I wanted to do with my life was to open a 'shop around the corner'.
Given how upsetting the past few days have been, I did particularly enjoy some of the dialogues more than usual -
Joe - "...On the other hand, I must warn you that when you finally have the pleasure of saying the thing you mean to say at the moment you mean to say it, remorse inevitably follows."

This one though is my absolute favourite - :)
Joe - "It wasn't... personal."
Kathleen - "What is that supposed to mean? I am so sick of that. All that means is that it wasn't personal to you. But it was personal to me. It's *personal* to a lot of people. And what's so wrong with being personal, anyway? ....Whatever else anything is, it ought to begin by being personal."

Kathleen - "...Sometimes I wonder about my life. I lead a small life. Well, valuable, but small. And sometimes I wonder, do I do it because I like it, or because I haven't been brave? So much of what I see reminds me of something I read in a book, when shouldn't it be the other way around? I don’t really want an answer. I just want to send this cosmic question out into the void. So goodnight, dear void. "

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Nothing

This past week has been hell. I start work at a new, and better, place from Monday, but I can confidently say that all the excitement and pride I felt about it has just vanished after the past few days which have been very unpleasant for no reason at all. Apparently the place I am leaving is infamous for creating such situations. I just never believed it till now.

I just feel empty right now. I'm exhausted by all the anger and frustration. And I can't seem to get back the initial feeling of jubilation.
I'm reminded of this one song by Dire Straits....

(Baby) I see this world has made you sad
Some people can be bad
The things they do,
the things they say....
... why worry...
these things have always been the same

The only silver lining is that apparently the SRCC kids told the LSR ones that "S*** ma'am is so cool.....we really like her!"...and at the end of the day, I believe that's what really matters.

Friday, September 11, 2009

End of a something

Surprise farewell from my students. Present, flowers, cake...I was overwhelmed!
It's amazing how efficient the student grapevine is. Even before I entered college, it seems the SRCC kids told the LSR ones about my appointment there, so I had to deal with a lot of 'whyyyy them?' issues!
Administration hassled me no end. But today, I fought back. Infact I reasoned, argued, screamed at everyone who tried to tell me my 'right' - which I am very clear about and which they are trying to fudge. I especially hate it when the inefficient admin staff talks to me. Just told them to shut up. I only speak to the HoD and Principal, not irrelevant incompetent idiots. I mean, give me a break. I can't take nonsense from everyone only because they are men and/or older to me. I don't function that way.
So, new beginnings from monday. Past few days have been so exhausting that they've almost taken away the feeling of jubilation that should have been there, but well I have the weekend to get it back.
Aur ab koi mujhse panga le kar dekhe...kutte kahin ke.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Arggghh

There are times when I seriously want to kill someone. Like today. I just refuse to tolerate things anymore. The amount of nonsense I have to put with from the moment I wake up to the moment I sleep - it's a wonder I haven't killed myself already.
I have got an offer to teach at the best undergrad institute in this country for my subject. I have every right to resign from my current institute, according to the terms of the contract. And yet they are not relieving me. I've heard a whole lot of crap about institutional commitment etc - it's surprising they are even saying this to me considering I haven't been paid since July. To add insult to injury they tell me I can teach at 'any other' college from next month - are they blind?! You cannot compare 'the best' to just 'any other'. It's just not done.
Anyway after a day of frantic phonecalls and running around, I have confirmed one thing - No one can stop me from joining the other place.
And please, duniya bhar ki moral obligations mere sir pe nahin hain. Baksh do mujhe. So, it's bound to get unpleasant when I meet the principal tomorrow, but seriously, I just don't care.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Changes

I am super duper proud of myself :D
Just like I was last year when they appointed me at LSR. Moving on to the sister concern now. (Brother concern is more like it!).

Change has been set into motion. Just when I was craving for it.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Death has it's own way

Yesterday the breaking news was the disappearance of Andhra Pradesh CM, YSR Reddy's helicopter. Today morning the breaking news was that dead bodies of all the five people on board have been found. It wasn't the Army, Air Force, ISRO, Tribal people, and all kind of hi-tech stuff that finally located the crash site. Instead it was the signal of one of the cellphones that survived the crash....
Tens of thousands of people have begun gathering at his residence, to pay their last respects. Today is also the last day of Ganesh Chaturthi.
Ma predicted it yesterday itself. I was a little more optimisitc. She called it youth. I suppose she's right.
It was also a chance for some of us to catch a glimpse of the Nallamalla forest. I for one had never heard of it till today, and I can safely say the media footage took by breath away. Such a large untouched expanse of forest area in our country...
We were talking about this at college, and JS mentioned that no matter how rich or poor one is; no matter how well known or obscure, in the end death has it's own way.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

September memories

"Wake me up, when september end.." - A friend had this as her status message on facebook today. I totally second that thought.

Today has been an unusually nostalgic day. The weather was perfect - cloudy skies, rains and good strong post-rain winds.

September means realising that we are nearing the end of the year. It means way too many birthdays to remember - and all of people who are very very close to me. From last year it also means AB's loss.
But over and above that, September will always and forever remind me of one day in particular, just like it did today.

There was a wedding
There was an insane downpour
There were friends and professors
all dressed up

There was a boy
walking my way
An unexpected hug
Incredulous looks all around

Damp locks
Beige-and-White
You were there
That was enough

It was then
that I knew
and it's been a long
long time
since that day.


The surprising thing is, that memory still makes me smile.